Tuesday, April 14, 2009

Stuff

Hm. It's been a while since I last posted here. What have I been up to?

My interview with the fantastic Geoff Byrd is up at Blogcritics: here. Yep, here, click here. In case you haven't already seen me whore it out elsewhere on the Internet.

Watching Oz a lot lately. Brutal. Also watching Two and a Half Men. Somewhat less brutal.

Been listening to Springsteen (you might have heard of him), M. Ward (most intriguing non-Campesinos!-or-Sufjan song title ever: "Epistemology", unless you already know what it means), Gaslight Anthem (Killers-but-better), She and Him (it's Zooey Deschanel singing! how could it go wrong?), Coconut Records ("West Coast" FTW, or whatever other internet meme is currently being used instead of FTW at the moment) and Morrissey (latest album is pretty damn good) the past few months.

As for the more important stuff.. what's actually been going on with me. The feelings stuff. Allow me to quote Springsteen, who sums up my life better than I ever could (which, I admit, is ever-so-slightly disturbing). "Same sad story, that's a fact. One step up and two steps back." Without going all emotional-outpour-y on you, dearest reader, my life - and a majority of the people who feature in it - disappoint me more with each passing day.

I think it's time to admit that I'm really not that happy with life. But admitting that brings with it a whole load of follow-up questions that I don't want to deal with and can't be bothered to answer. It's like trying to explain to an elderly relative that "no, I don't think watching pronography makes one some kind of perverted monster". It's easier to just put up and shut up. Accept the status quo, pass things off with a dismissive "yeah". Am I happy? "Yeah".

3 comments:

Tom said...

Wow, I click on this blog for the first time in months and there just happens to be a brand new post!

As you know, I'v really got into Springsteen lately, too: in fact, I'm listening to him right now!

As for the, and I quote, "feelings stuff", I'm not quite sure what to say. I've always been a bit of a doer and if you can admit to yourself that things aren't right, then you should make some changes. Sure, the easy option is to sit back and accept it, but I've always found its the chances you didn't take you come to regret the most. At the end of the day, if things are bad, then you haven't got much to lose by trying to improve them ;)

Also, if it's any concolation (wow, I cannot spell for sh!t, today) Springsteen's "The Wrestler" is pretty much my life's soundtrack at the moment (which is ironic, given my size).

Tom. :)

Tom said...

Ah, just noticed this entry is 3 months old!

Wesley Mead said...

Thanks Tom. It's an old entry, yep, but it pretty much all still applies.

So glad you're into Springsteen a lot lately. :D

You're so right about actually doing things. I've been trying to make more of an effort recently. I've been succeeding to some extent, going out more and such. But further change is needed, regardless.

Maybe a spin of "Badlands" or something will motivate me. :D